18 weeks

Well, just two more weeks to the half way point. The little one is kicking me as I type. They feel like light flicks to the stomach or any other internal organ he happens to hit. I've only felt the "butterflies" a couple of times but not in the last few days. I'm going to probably see the doctor during 20 weeks. Since I was laid off from my last job it's taking forever for the MediCal paperwork to get finished. I've never applied before but I'm assuming because of the high unemployment rate that the process is double the time it should be taking. I was assured that the paperwork should be finished this week and I will have my card in the mail next week. I hope everything is fine, I've only been able to guess since the last time I went to the doctor I was around 6 weeks. I hated before I could feel the baby move because I had no idea how the baby was growing. There was only slight piece of mind when I would watch the show "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant". It's a crazy show to watch. Mostly dumb women but still some scary births. But the ones they show never had any doctor care and delivered healthy babies so I am hoping that God is giving me the same consideration. Now that there is kicking and movement it gives me piece of mind that the little one still is in there and doing pretty good.
Since I'm home all day I'm adapting to stay-at-home-mommy mode. The house has never been cleaner! This is the first time in about 10 years that I haven't had a job to go to. Back then it was by choice but now it's because "what's the point?" When I was laid off Jimmy and discussed it and we agreed that it would be too difficult to find a job quickly but addionally we would both feel bad that in approximately 7 months that I would have to take leave or quit. So it was the best choice for us that I just stay at home until the baby is here. I was greatful at the time because I was in the full throws of morning sickness and needing afternoon naps that I knew no work would fit in with my body's new schedule. I still am greatful but I'm starting to feel board. I guess it's cabin fever? I don't have too many friends up here and the few I do work during the day so I'm stuck either commuting down the hill or finding new ways of entertaining myself - Which lately had been to read from cover-to-cover every baby pamplet and brochure I've ever received. Robin loaned me some non-baby-related books which she's been trying to get me to read for a year now and both were read before the week was up.
My big concerns lately are: Money, finally going to see the doctor, and getting started excercising. (I've been lazy and hadn't really started an excercise program yet so my goal this coming week is to start now that I found a pregnancy workout schedule online. I think it will give me the motivation that I need.) Funny enough is the excercising isn't because I feel I've gained too much weight. On the contrary, I feel like I should be bigger. On Babycenter.com a lot of moms have been posting their week-to-week photos and I feel I'm on the low end of belly bump sizes. I guess I'm going to have to wait till I see the doctor to know for sure.
My big acheivements are: I bought a maternity swimsuit. I figure if I'm going to be pregnant all summer then I want to be cute and comfortable. Making weekly meal plans on the $1 dry erase menu board I got at Target and shopping for just that week of meals, additionally cooking dinner at home every night. They might not be the healthiest meals but they're home cooked!